stupid is as stupid does

last night i watched a movie that i used to like a lot. i hated it. i sat through the entire thing wondering why i liked this movie. i've had the same thought about other movies, but normally those movies where childhood favorites that didn't stand the test of time for me or movies that i've just watched over and over again until i can't tolerate another viewing, at least not for a long time. the movie i watched last night, i have only seen a handful of times and was released in 2004. i'm not naming the movie, because well, the title just doesn't matter. whether other people like the movie or not isn't the point. the point is that i don't like it anymore. or at least i hated it last night. it could be that it was just the wrong movie for me last night. i had started to watch something else on my DVR, but turned out that only the first 14 minutes of it had recorded for some reason. so i did settle for watching something different. i picked the second movie because two of the four main characters were played by the same actors as two of the main characters in the first movie.

anyway...i hated the movie. and it got me thinking. how can a movie i liked so much in the first 4-5 viewings become something i can hardly tolerate sitting though on the next viewing? my first thought was that the plot of the movie was hitting too close to home for some reason thus making me evaluate aspects of my life. nope. nothing that happened in the movie comes anywhere close to my life. nor do i want anything that happens in the movie to happen in my life. the movie is full of drama and dysfunction...two things i try very hard to not have in my life. my next thought and the thought that has stayed with me was that since the last viewing, i've changed in some way. well, yeah, of course i've changed. that's what people do. they change. i'd be stupid to think i'm the same person i was when i first saw the movie. but this morning i figured out why i hated the movie so much.

my tolerance for stupid people has shrunk to the point of near non-existence. and this movie was full of stupid people. stupid people making stupid decisions and on top of being stupid, they were weak. they couldn't figure a way out of their problems just making the problems bigger. how i managed to get through 2 hours of their whiny-ness i'm not sure, but by the end of the movie, i just wanted them all dead...or at least more miserable than they already were. it makes me appreciate the people i have in my life. i've managed to find people to surround myself with that have very little drama, but aren't afraid of fun. people who aren't stupid either intellectually or socially. people who allow me to be me and don't wish i was 'more' of anything.

while i wish i had the two hours of my life back i wasted watching the movie, i'm thankful it allowed me to evaluate my life and publicly say 'thank you!' to everyone in my life who help keep the stupid and drama out of my everyday life.