letter to a friend

dear mr. you know who you are~

over the last couple of years, i've had a lot of time to think of the things i'd love to say to you if i had the chance.  some good things, some bad things, some things just to make you laugh, but mostly those things don't matter because what i really want to say is i miss you.

circumstances change, things get messy, life moves you in opposite, i get and understand all the reasons two people drift apart.  i don't want to, but i get it.  i don't like it, but i get it.  doesn't change the fact that i miss you.

we were once closer than two people have the right to be.  you were the ying to my yang.  you were the milk to my cookies.  you were my brother.  and while the rest of the world around us, didn't get us, it didn't matter because we got us and it was great. 

but life interfered and i didn't deal with it well.  you found a happiness i couldn't understand and wasn't willing to try to understand.  i was selfish.  i was very resistant to the changes and i fear that made the distance unbridgeable when actual physical distance was put between us.  i'm sorry about that.  you were one of the two closest people in my life and i feel i took that for granted, but that doesn't change the big gaping hole in my life where you used to reside.  i've moved on and worked to fill that hole.  i've created a wonderful life for myself in your absence, but sometimes, late at night i wish you were still there for me to share my funny stories with or to help me talk through some drama i don't know how to deal with.  at this moment in my life, i have never wanted your opinion on a topic than i do now, but i've learned over the last few years to trust my gut, go with my heart and never look back.  i've become more spontaneous and fun.  because you taught me to be those things.

i just want you to know, i'm happy, i'm sorry, i've moved on, but i miss you.

c