Confession

Hiya, my name is Carrie and I'm an addict.
 
What am I addicted to you ask? Well, we'll get to that later, but first...

I'm Carrie. I've gone by other names (Heather, Roommate, Murph, Turk and Raven to name a few), but their time was fleeting or only allowed to be used by my dad. I have been and always will be, Carrie. I rarely use my last name, not because I dislike it, but because my first and last name when used together is a bit of a mouthful and doesn't flow. I'm a fan of names that flow, mine doesn't, therefore, I leave of the last name whenever possible. I come from a very small, not so close knit family who all live about 2 hours from me. I wouldn't call myself the black sheep as I get along with all of them fine, but I'm definitely not like them. And I'm a Gemini. Not just born under that sign, but definitely have dueling personalities. Maybe I should name them...

The most important thing to know about me is that I'm a nerd. Seriously. And I'm a nerd about everything. If I find something interesting, I find a way to celebrate it and nerd out. I attend comic conventions and dream of someday making my way to the Mecca of conventions, the San Diego Comicon. I go to Renaissance Faires. I dress up for the Faires, but not for the Cons. I see as many concerts, plays/musicals and sporting events as I can every year. This week alone I have two concerts and a Renaissance Faire. I love jigsaw puzzles and candy making. I bake a lot and I hit the gym as often as possible. I went to college on a combo sports/academic scholarship (both of which I lost in my freshman year and ended up paying out of pocket for the rest of my college career). I'm a teacher who works as a nanny and dreams of opening a dessert restaurant and/or bookstore. Both stores are designed and named...as separate stores and as a combo. I am compassionate, but not empathic. I am a baby boomer stuck in the body of a Gen Xer. I celebrate the written and spoken word. I enjoy being around people, but I require alone time in order to do so. I love children, but do not wish to have any of my own. I love to eat. I think a good hot dog is the most perfect food. I love to drink...though rarely to excess. I love whiskey and wine and gin and beer. I am low maintenance when it comes to my appearance, but probably not so low maintenance in any other way. I prefer the company of boys not because I like to flirt or the attention, but because I have more in common with boys. But my girl friends mean the world to me and I wouldn't give them up for anything. I excel at compartmentalizing, but often forget what compartment things are in. I'm a super unorganized, relatively messy person in my own space, but hate when other people are. I'm always early. I'm easily annoyed. I love my family and would do anything for them, but I believe the family you choose is often more important than the family you're born in. If I choose you, I choose you forever, whether you like it or not. I love people, but not of the stupid variety. I'm laid back and easy-going, unless I'm driving...then I'm pretty much a rage monster. I hate liars, but I'm really good at lying (though I try not to). I want to hear what you have to say even if I might not like it, but you probably won't hear from me again until I digest it. I respect all people, but mock all people. I'm sarcastic and often the one responsible for taking a joke just a little too far (still funny, but inappropriate). I hate smoothies, but I'm currently drinking one because I hate unnecessary waste so I saved it from being dumped down the sink. I am good with a wrench and screwdriver, but horrible with a hair brush and curling iron. I can the oil and tires on my car, but I can't put on make up. I love the smell of a freshly mowed lawn, but hate mowing my yard. I love to shovel snow and drive in snow, but I hate all forms of snowy recreation. I rarely find myself angry about things, not because I'm not passionate enough to get angry, but because I don't see the point in spending my time mad. I believe regrets are for people who don't like themselves. Stupid decisions happen. We wouldn't be who we are without them. And I've done a lot of things other people would regret. I believe saying yes to most things is the way to go, but not if it means you'll forget how to say no. I believe eating green veggies is good for you, but so is the occasional bowl of ice cream. I believe in God, but don't care if you do or not. I'm a Libertarian, but forgive you for not agreeing with me. I struggle to reconcile my Christian upbringing with my current life, but am happy to do so because it keeps thinking, growing and learning. However I have no problem reconciling dinosaurs with my belief that God created everything. I believe that the Detroit Lions, Chicago White Sox, Michigan Wolverines and Norwich City Canaries are the far superior teams in their various sports and can't wait til the rest of the world figures it out, but I think the New Orleans Saints, Detroit Tigers, and LSU Tigers are a close second...the Canaries are one of a kind and no one can compete with them...though there are many players I'd love to see make their way to Norwich and look forward to watching them with their current clubs. I love to play volleyball but haven't touched a ball in about 10 years and then it was a disaster. I don't date. I'm one short term boyfriend away from still believing in the idea of no sex before marriage. I'm pro-choice. I'm all for gay marriage, but believe marriage in general is just as stupid idea. One day I hope to die (living forever would REALLY suck) and I hope when I die, that is the end. No heaven or hell for me. If I must live on, let me be a ghost. I love my house, but some times wish I had never bought it. I believe the Devil is one misunderstood guy and that Eve is a total bitch. I love board games, but refuse to go so far as to role play. I rarely eat a piece of cake, but I love a good cupcake...the important word being "good". I'm not afraid to go out by myself whether to a restaurant, bar, movie, concert or sporting event. I volunteer whenever I can (which isn't as often as I'd like). I can quote all of Dirty Dancing and Blazing Saddles. I love to cry as much as I like to laugh, but I never do either at a funeral....well, unless something is funny. I'm most comfortable talking to people in text or in person. Phone conversations make me uncomfortable and I only have them when I have to. If I could have any pet in the world, it would be a sheep...or maybe a monkey-sized John Barrowman. Relationships of any kind scare me because I'm not good at them, but I try really hard when I have them to be a good friend, partner, what-have-you. And I love my country and believe in it, but would ditch it in a heartbeat if it meant I could live in Ireland.

Love it or leave it, that's me. Now I'm going to go pack a cooler full of goodies for my concert tonight. 

Oh yeah...what am I addicted to?

My life.